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specialksmymuse
specialksmymuse
long time, no update
I have not been on here in ages despite my attempts to sign in and check in on everyone.  I really should be checking in on myself, but that is a different story.  Life has been a bit crazy because of work and school.  I work every day of the week and I go to school on Monday, Wednesday and Friday.  MWF at work I am in from 8:30-12:30 and then I go to school on MW from 1:30-7:00 and Friday I am in class from 1:30-2:30.  Tuesday and Thursday I work from 10:30-3:00 and I take Amber to school and pick her up.  Tuesdays I go to my dad's house and weekends are never free because I am always planning them weeks ahead so I can have me time or me and Amber time.  

My classes are uneventful and I manage to sleep through math almost every Monday and Wednesday.  I got a riase at work the other day from my 3 month review so I am making $10.25 an hour now.  Not great, but not bad either.  It is enough to get me through paying for classes and getting books and gas and whatnot.  I get another review in June and I will get a 4% raise, then.  That will be nice.  Amber and I have been going out for 1 year and 3 months on the 20th of this month.  We are both very shocked and happy.  We want to tell someone, but we can't because it is not the right time yet.  We are both still living at home despite desperate attempts to get out and in the world.  We had an offer to move in with a friend, but we don't know if that is going to happen either.  A: he lives in San Antonio, B: he is a he and C: he is moving out of the big appartment in January and I said we wouldnt be able to make it out there til at LEAST June or July 2008.  So much for his plan and ours.

The weather has finally changed here and it is really nice.  Mornings and nights are in the 60s and the days are in the mid- to upper-80s.  I have been spending too much money at Old Navy lately on their jeans because they are the only ones that fit right.  And, when they're on sale, I don't mind.  $18 is nothing compared to their normal $35.  I have also given my fair amoutn to Hot Topic for Placebo, Siouxsie and The Velvet Underground shirts.  With the insanity that is my life, I went blonde again.  And not just blonde, I mean full blown bright blonde.  It has been a week since I did it and my roots are already starting to show.  I had quit biting my finger nails, but I started again and that bugs me.  

The other day I had a giant panic attack at school and wouldn't come out of the bathroom.  Every inhale screamed at me and told me to stop breathing, but every exhale made me feel like I was suffocating and that I needed to keep breathing.  I spent two days walking around like a zombie.  In the process I cried more in one day than I had in months and I hurt my hand rather badly on a 60 year old wooden wall.  Stupid, yes, but it was better than driving into a concrete barrier on the road.  My dad hates my blonde hair and the fact that I walk into the house wearing black skinny jeans and an MSI tee, but at least I am not like my sister.  I go to class, I pass my classes, I don't back talk, I don't do drugs or drink too much, I don't text all of the time.  You know, the things a 15 year old shouldnt do.  

I really need to get back to doing the month of math homework that I decided to blow off until the last day.  I am almost finished, but it is just too easy and I have the tendency to get bored with it.  Thanks goodness I got a new iPod for my birthday.  I just need more music to put on it.  2300 songs, 8 episodes of Robot Chicken and 1 movie only takes up 9 of the 80 gigs.

Peace, all.  Hope you're all well.

Current Music: Stone Temple Pilots "Creep"

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ledderlegs From: ledderlegs Date: October 15th, 2007 08:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
'Allo!
Glad to know you're pretty ok.
specialksmymuse From: specialksmymuse Date: October 19th, 2007 02:49 am (UTC) (Link)
heh, yeah. guess it is, isnt it? no, i havent been wiped from the face of the earth...yet!
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