so, i had a relapse and that has been a pain in the ass. i have been writing, it is so far the best cure for anything and i still dont have the guts to go to the doctor to get tested of bi-polar disorder. moving out in about 2 months if all things go well and my parents said they will possibly co-sign for me and amber. this month is our one year anniversary and i am hyped about it. i need to go out and get her a gift for it - and on the midnight the 20th (our anniversary), we will be at barnes and noble for the release of harry potter and the deathly hallows. *is excited* i have become weight obsessed and this week i lost 10 pounds but i dont feel like it is enough. im messed up, i admit it, but at least i eat healthy. i want to lose 80 ponunds or so and that seems insane, i know, but i can afford to lose 80 pounds or more.
going to get tmy first tattoo very soon - hopefully around my birthday of this year. i am going to get a navigational star on the inside of my right wrist to cover some scars - after all, the navigational star symbolizes protection. depending on how bad it hurts, i will be back for the second one about a year after the first one. it will be violin f-holes on the back of my neck surrounded by celtic knotwork. somewhere along the line i want to get something that symbolizes writing.
my family is driving me insane. hopefully amber will call me soon and i will be able to leave their lovely presence.
hope everybody is well
Current Music: David Bowie "Watch That Man"